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of all people…bakit ikaw pa? Hindi ko inaasahan na magugustuhan kita…and what hurts the most, after you had learned what I really feel, eh bigla kang magiging ganyan sa akin…Gusto ko sanang magkamali sa iniisip ko pero something tells me na meron na talagang nagbago…aminin mo man o hindi…Kung alam ko lang na ganito ang mangyayari, sana hindi ko na pinaalam para di mo na nalaman..di ko naman inaasahan na ganito kahahantungan ng friendship natin eh…di naman siguro ikasasama ng loob mo kung burahin kita sa FB right, tutal di pa naman tayo ganun ka-close and di naman siguro mahalaga sayo yung friendship natin, kasi nga di naman tayo ganun ka-close.. sa totoo lang na-iinggit ako kay Lori..how I wish I was in her place..kasi nakikita ko kung gaano mo siya kagusto or yet kamahal…sana nga lang mapansin niya na yun at sana maniwala na siya…I only wish for your happiness kahit na ang kapalit nun eh ang masaktan ako…Di ko naman na hinihiling na magustuhan mo rin ako eh..pero nasasaktan lang ako na wala palang halaga sayo yung pagkakaibigan natin…Saktan mo man ako intentionally or unintenionally, its your choice…Sa totoo lang, I’ve been praying na sana tanggalin na ni Lord yung feelings ko para sa iyo…kasi di ko na nagugustuhan yung nangyayari sa akin eh…di na siya healthy…

makakalimutan din kita…at sana hindi mo pagsisihan yung pagbabalewala sa friendship ko…kung pagsisisihan mo man…

Farewell to Love

One night there’s a sudden change of heart
as she listen to all of the songs that once made her cry
She is wondering what it is
To her surprise she never thought it would come to this

Her heart decides to bid farewell
To the feeling that once made her fell
For it only bring sadness and tears to her eyes
There’s no other choice but to say GOODBYE…

Through the years, it was all one sided
Never been loved and what’s worse, never been appreciated
Always end up as a loser
For was never been chosen by her dream lover

Tired of dreaming of having a perfect love story
Tired of waiting for her prince charming
Can’t be blamed for what is happening
She just gave up the only one reason that makes her heart beating

But despite of all the heartaches she’s been through
She still wants to say thank you
Because once in her lifetime
She finally knew what LOVE is all about…

Everytime I hear love songs played on my playlist, I can’t help but to cry…I guess I’m not yet done dealing with the pain from my past…And even though I say it too many times that I’m over it, just thinking how I got my heart broken…I know that I’m back to square one…I thought this only happened in movies, but to my surprise it can also happen in real life…

I guess I loved too much…I gave my whole heart to someone who doesn’t even know what LOVE is…and being played was not I expected to get in return…

I always asked myself how did I end up loving this person so much? Why on earth I’m still hoping that one day we would end up together? I guess, I can’t love someone the way I loved him…

But if Brooke Davis can do it..Letting someone in after her heart crushed by someone she loved so much…I guess I can do that too..I can open my heart to someone but I guess not just now…but hopefully…SOMEDAY…

I don’t know if what I did last night was right, but one thing is for sure, I’m happy…and I guess that’s what matters…right? I know that when I talk about this to my friends, I know what kind of reaction they will have…So I guess I should talk this matter to those who can understand me the most…I know what he did to me 5 years ago was really unforgivable, and in fact, I should be hating him or I shouldn’t be friends with him anymore…But I can’t help it if I still want him in my life…I don’t understand why my heart had this little hope of us ending up together even though it’s impossible to happen…and the song “Why does it hurt so bad?” applies to my situation right now…

My sister told me that the reason why I’m like this is maybe because of the excitement it gave me after we had a little chat last night when the truth is I’m really over him…

At some point, maybe my sister was right…but I don’t know…I guess let’s just wait and see…

when I first met u, i was annoyed by your arrogance…but when I was given the chance 2 know u, my heart suddenly feels uncomfortable…and that’s when I realize I’m starting to LIKE you…^^

Sa lahat naman ng pwedeng magustuhan bakit ikaw pa??? andami naman diyan, bakit ayo pa??? ano bang meron ka na wala sila???? saksakan ka ng yabang at angas sa katawan…suplado at moody ka pa…pero bakit sayo ko bigla naramdaman to…nakakainis talaga…

Di ko maintindihan kung bakit sa tuwing magkakagusto ako lagi na lang sa taong di na pwede…Hindi ko hinahangad na magustuhan mo ako dahil alam ko naman na imposible yun at alam kong di rin ang tulad ko ang tipo mo…Ang tipo mo ay yung tulad ng kaibigan mo na taken na rin pero kung pareho lang kayong single eh baka pinormahan mo na…

Kung bakit kasi nabigyan pa ako ng pagkakataon na makilala ka…Yan tuloy nalaman ko na hindi ak apal ganun kasama…Medyo lang…Nagagawa mong hindi na magsuplado…At kapag nagsimula ka ng ngumiti, mas lalo akong kinakabahan at unti-unting natutunaw…nakakaloka!!!! 

Ayoko na sa kung ano man ang nararamdaman ko dahil hindi tama at wala ring saysay na ipagpatuloy ito dahil alam ko kung gaano mo kamahal ang other half mo pero sana dumating na ang araw na mawala ito dahil hindi ko na talaga kakayanin kung mas lalo pang lumalim…Tama na hanggang crush at inspiration ka lang..okay??? period!!!!

when does CRUSH ends and FALLING IN LOVE begins???? I start missing him na (for real ha…) and I can’t say I’m there na kasi it’s too early to say pa…waaahhhhh….I hate this part…=(

and then…he suddenly kiss me…I was caught off guard…again! and for me it was 4 years all over again…I don’t know if I will get kilig or wala lang…I don’t know…really…and here I am again repeating the same mistake…*sigh* kelan ba ako matututo?????? 

I guess what I did last night was really a huge mistake..What if someone saw us and put malice into it? I don’t want to be the cause of ruining a relationship…But I made it clear to him that we are just FRIENDS…Nothing more, Nothing less…I know he understood what I meant that night…I’m just doing what is right…What am I going to do? I also confessed that at first I was attracted to him and I think (I think!) that it made him wants us to be a couple…But I was so happy that I had the strength to say “NO”…Cause I’ve been there and I know how it feels to be the “OTHER”…I came to a decision and I will stand by it…I’m doing this to protect him and myself for the worst thing that could happen once someone knows about it (except my friend)…I know that I can hurt someone and I don’t want that…All I can do is to treat this thing as if never happened…